Cannot stop peeing!

I read online that Lasix abuse helps lose weight. So i took 1, which was prescribed to my dog for his lungs, this morning. I now cannot stop peeing for 5 mins. While waiting for cabs earlier on, i had to rush to the nearest loo to pee, thrice. Ended up i was late for work. And during the 10 mins journey to reach the office, i almost cried in pain. I HAD to pee! And it coming now.... gotta go!

Once too big now too small.

I found a t-shirt which i had kept away cos it was too big sized. Tonight i put it on, its too small too tight. What have i become?!

Much too little

Only when u binge, then u've enough to puke. I thought i can start losing some weight by eating less. Backfired. Tonight these junks stay in cos i was unable to push them out. AND just when i finished Xenical last night. Tomorrow, a fatter me.
- 2 slices pandan cakes
- 2 plates nasi lemak (coconut rice, fried chicken wing, fried peanuts, onion egg, fry prawns)
- half pepper chicken.

"Oh, hey, you still look the same!"

My ex-manager came to the office on Wednesday. I waved to her when i saw her from a distance. She took a minute, then said, almost embarrassingly, "Oh, hey, you still look the same!". And i knew what she meant. I am double the size now from we last met 4 years ago. Her shocked & disgusted expression gave her away.

No life

I was planning to attend our company's chalet today. I fed my dog early at 5pm, then showered, styled my hair, & was getting dressed at 5.30pm. By 6pm, i decided not to go cos i don't look good in any clothes.

I told myself last night that i mustn't miss this again, & promised to go no matter what. I had even arranged to meet a colleague at 7.30pm, then go shop for party food. But i can't when i've no clothes to wear! It'd be a shame if i had to go wearing my old clothes, the usual ones which i wear to work everyday. I found pretty ones but i can't fit them anymore!

I hate it when i've to make really stupid excuses not to turn up tonight. I really wanted to go. I'm sure no one's going to invite me again cos for the past 4 years i always backed out last minute like today.

Now, 3 smses just came in, my fellow colleagues say they'd really like to see me there. Its Mothers' Day today & that is my excuse for tonight. Now, the irony is that i've also told my family i'm not going for dinner cos i've company's party.

Another sms from my cousins. Telling me they are missing me at grandma's. I'm just going to cry.

Put on weight

This morning, 48KG. OMG.

Dr Ly @ ARVC Balestier

I just want to say that Dr Ly has done an amazing job on my dog's ear turmor. I had spent 8 months trying to seek treatment at Mt Pleasant (Dr Heng) & St James' (James Tan) but still no improvement after blowing $2,000+.

I decided to visit Dr Ly after i read an article about him & seeing him on a TV documentary show. Also i was mad with Dr Heng when, on my 100th visit, she simply told me she "give up" & had no clue on whats wrong with my dog's ear infections!

For 8 months, my dog's ear was smelly, oozing pus & sticky discharge. Now i am soooo happy to see his ear pink & clean again. The surgery costs about $3000+. Yea, Dr Ly is a hero but also an expensive one. Lol.

I bet it would have costs less if not for his nurse overcharging me. He relies on this particular nurse to list & prepare the bill, & this woman overcharged for many items without consulting Dr Ly. Once, she added 'wound cleaning' after Dr Ly wiped my dog's ear with wet cotton to get a good inspection. And when i asked Dr Ly, he was like, huh? Take it out. There was no wound cleaning. And that 'wound cleaning' service was a whopping $58. There were so many other times when she added other items to the bill which Dr Ly would not.

Anyway, Dr Ly is great and so are most (if not all) of his nurses @ Balestier, except this particular one. I never catch her name but thats her below.

I hate my tummy

when i sit...

u can see fold lines...

Oil Leaks From Taking Xenical

Bad Service @ Vet Practice Clinic, 106 Jln Kechil. Singapore 598604

I always had unpleasant experiences whenever i've to visit Vet Practice. And it was only when i had no choice, like when our regular vet at another clinic was overseas or when that other clinics are closed or that i had no time to travel cos Vet Practice is (unfortunately) the nearest one from my home.

The clinic is old, the air stuffy, bad odor, reeks of urine, uncomfortable seats, weak & stale air-conditioning, poorly-lit, unmotivated nurses, wrinkled uniforms, slouchy, the vets have untidy hair, rough, uncaring, impatient, poor communication skills, the office is not well-equipped, unhygienic, & has an unbearable stench.

Once, a sick dog vomitted at the reception area. The unsympathetic nurses shook their heads in disgust & then handed a mop to the owner to clean up the mess. Another time a dog urinated at the waiting area near the entrance. The attending nurse simply threw old newspapers onto the floor to soak it up & left the pile where it was. Unknowing clients then walked over the wet puddle, stepped into the clinic & that explains why the stink.

2 years ago my dog was suddenly panting heavily so i rushed him down during lunch hour. The vet told me she was going for her break & told me to leave my dog until the clinic reopen in 3hrs' time. I thought my dog didn't look right & told her it may be an emergency. She reluctantly examined my dog for all of 10 secs & told me she had to administer anesthetic to look into its throat. She then asked me to leave my dog there & pick him up at around 7pm.

I was mad & decided to rush to another clinic. When i hurried out she dashed out after me for payment. I told her she had done nothing but she insisted that i pay for full consultation ($30+). I paid for it cos i didn't want to waste anymore time. The whole visit was over in less than 10mins which my poor dog received no help.

Over at the other clinic, the vet attended to my dog immediately & suspected that he had some heart problems. He was found to have an enlarged heart & had fluid retention in his lungs.

Lasted all of 2 toilet trips

I had 2 oily poos & that was it. No reaction & still not losing weight. I just brought another 60 tabs. Its much more costly than D at $1.75 each.

Xenical

I started 1 tab Xenical last night cos no docs are selling me D.

Current weight: 45kg

Just wanna stay home

This morning there was a CNY party with lion dance & yusheng in the office but i dread such gathering cos i've put on (more) weight after the long holiday break.

I made up stupid reasons to take urgent leave so i can stay home. Then i b & p.

These days i don't stay for long in the office cos i hate feeling my fat tummy when sitting down.

I heard some fat people on TV says they are ok & happy being the way they are. I must never think like that.

Addicted to Holiday

After a long leave from 10 to 23 Feb, today i'm returning to work. I did not take D during that period cos i wanted to binge on CNY goodies. Last night i start worrying again so i took 1 tab & stayed awake the whole night. So here i am online at 5am. Firstly cos it makes my mind overly active & alert. Secondly cos i need to pee so much. My bladder is full every 2 minutes. Once i lay back on the bed i've the urge to pee again. I can probably fill 5 litres. No kidding. And i don't even drink much water. This is another side effect which i haven't mention. Oh, and also body aches especially on neck & shoulder.

Its time to wash up & get ready to work. Yawn, & NOW i'm feeling sleepy. Damnit.

What I did for Chinese New Year

1). Eat pineapple tarts
2). Puke pineapple tarts
3). Repeat 1) & 2).

Still FAT

FYI i am still F A T. My face is damn round! i've been eating & munching so much so that my jaws are hurting. I've only 2 tabs left & i've to find means to get supplies again. I so hate myself. Now CNY is nearing & i wish i'd drop dead by then so i don't have to face the pressure.